It has been a while since I last blogged. For over a month, my Mom has been ill. It has taken a toll on me emotionally, physically and creatively. I have lost interest in most things. Even now this blog post was difficult to make. The uncertainty I feel is cutting like a knife.
Although my Mother is making progress, I still wonder what could happen next. Seeing my Mom lying in a hospital bed at my parents house shook me to my core. I had many flashbacks of the good times we spent together. Just knowing that I came so close to losing her has put me in a very dark place. Chances are my posts will be sporadic until I am in a better mindset. I want to say thank you to my Husband and family for helping me make it through this difficult time. To my friends who listened and offered heartfelt advice, thank you. Thank you to the sponsors who have been very understanding. Last but not least, I appreciate all my readers. Thank you for letting me pour out my heart to you.
Over and over we lose this sense of feeling we are wholly in our skins by means already named as well as through extended duress. Those who toil too long without respite are also at risk. The soulskin vanishes when we are not paying attention to what we are really doing and particularly the cost to us.